As I’m sitting here writing to all of you, I realized something. It’s hard being a college student some days because you’re trying to get good grades first of all. If you have a part time job then you’re trying to manage your time well with that and making sure that you get your studying in and making sure your dorm room is clean or if you have an apartment then you have to make sure everything is clean. Also trying to please other people can be a difficult thing too. Now I know I’m suppose to live it up in college and have fun, but honestly how can I? Especially when I’m trying to manage all these others things in my life. Not to mention trying to manage a workout in and my devotional for the day. Life is definitely a carnival ride.



Besides being all stressed out with school and other activities, college has been amazing so far. I am thrilled to say that I will be a part of Kirkwood Community College Dance Marathon and I couldn’t be more excited or blessed. I will have the privilege of dancing for the kiddos for 12 hours straight and honestly that is nothing compared to what those little fighters has to endure every single day of their life.


Overall God has been so gracious to me this past year. The other night I had a long talk with God about my future. I was even curious if I’ll ever be good enough to find a future husband. I realized that I was actually scared I would never be able to make a man happy. I get scared that every guy will lose interest or get bored of me because I’m just a simple girl who can find excitement in my daily life with the people that mean the most to me. I must look to God as my primary source of completion and perfection. I’m scared that I won’t be enough for him. If we unmarried women ever became his priority number one, well then sweethearts we need to get out because it’s going to go downhill from there. Whenever the times comes for me, it will be my job to support and respect my man in a way that makes him want to be all that he can be, but it will never be my job to make that happen or to be his primary source of satisfaction. God must already have that place in his heart.


I know girls stress over the fact that they want to know when their knight and shining armor will arrive, but I know it’s all in Gods timing and everything will happen when its suppose to happen. Besides as much as I would love to meet my knight and shining armor and maybe I already have but lets be honest, I wouldn’t mind myself a country boy to be honest, but whatever God wants me to have then I will be more than blessed and thrilled with what I am given.


With that all being said, I’m trying to take one step at a time with my life. Just hang in there. Take a deep breath. Take a walk, go on a run. Cry if you need to let it out. Step away from whatever your problem may be. Always remember the big picture. Smile with the memories of what has already happened and what is about to happen. Accept what is to come for the future and of course always trust in our Father. He knows what is best.


Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. (Colossians 3:12-17)